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Mental Health

Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been curating my blog, which basically means removing some random posts reviewing various diets, and restaurants in Salisbury, from when I worked there a good few years ago. In the course of that … Continue reading

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I had a meltdown. At least, I’m fairly sure that’s what it was. I’ve had many in my life, but not that recently – not since I realised I was autistic. I’d had a very difficult week at work, and … Continue reading

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Spirals and Safety Nets – So Far So Good

I’ve stopped taking my antidepressants again. It took me about six months to come off them completely, and I stopped taking any about four months ago. Despite thinking I would never be able to come off them, I’d found some … Continue reading

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Suicide (caution, some readers might find this disturbing)

Embarrassing. That’s my first reaction at having to discuss thoughts of suicide. I’m sitting in front of the doctor, trying to explain that I’m worried about what happened when I came off the pills, because I went so far downhill … Continue reading

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Lower the Dose

So, having decided to reduce the dose of my antidepressants, I had one month on 100mg alternating with 50mg per day, and now I’m down on 50mg per day for one month. Next step is 50mg every other day for … Continue reading

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Without A Safety Net

Like the stereotypical mental health patient, I take my meds, I feel better, I don’t like the side effects so I stop taking them. This time, I’ve decided to stop to see if any of the self-examination and the effort … Continue reading

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Life goes on

I have a new job – one that so far, four days in, I love. The car wouldn’t start today, so now it’s in the garage and we’re managing with one car. Weather is lousy – so cold I feel … Continue reading

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Very slowly and erratically, my energy levels are increasing. Gradually, I’m more able to just potter around the house doing bits and pieces, play with my children, go out for walks now and again, think about things. I had not … Continue reading

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I Didn’t Lose Me

Previously when I’ve been on antidepressant medication, I have felt that an essential part of myself is lost. It’s very difficult to describe, but I suppose I see that part as the best of me. It’s an energy, an enthusiasm, … Continue reading

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Gary Speed

Until he took his own life, I’d never heard of Gary Speed. Although he was Manager of the Wales Football Team, and I am Welsh, I am not a football fan. However, the intensity of the shock at his death … Continue reading

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